Trigger Fox
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Now, now let me talk about some things without anyone getting upset.
First I will say that with a new year, comes a new start for all of us. So I've taken everyone off of my cunt list.
I came into this fandom for fun and entertainment. To make friends and to share interests and I did, I did make a lot of good friends online and at my first con 3 years ago. I continued to do so until this very day.`
Getting to the point, I admit I've been an asshole- this past year especially. Why? Well I can certainly try to explain:
I came into this community and I really fell in love with it. The thought of having your own character, the conventions to meet people, the costuming, all of it really really attracted me. Of course after more research I discovered the sex aspect, though never really thought that was what the whole community was about (I figured it was just like an "adult section" in a video store). I met a lot of people quickly and just got sucked right in.
Over the years, I met more and more and more people and went to more and more cons. Also along the way discovering more and more disgusting attributes. Back then I was giving the fandom the benefit of the doubt but the more and more I contributed my time towards it only to unravel more and more disgusting secrets in return, the more I just became.... angry.
Now here I am today. Not really proud of the fandom anymore and that's where the problem lies. I had really high hopes for this community but everyday I'm reminded that it's sadly held prisoner by sexual means. I mean, I can't show my friends and family my art that I worked hard on without fear of being labeled a sexual deviant. I've become hateful towards being surrounded by all this sex constantly, it does nothing but bring me down or make me angry.
So I've been lashing out at things that ruin it for me. I mean, I'm not doing it for attention. I don't know anything about the internet, I don't know what trolling is, i don't know the slang words, I don't know shit!
I'm just a guy that's mad as hell that something that brought him joy way back when, now just continues to destroy itself right in front of him and he wants to reach out to those who are listening through his journal. That's it. If you don't believe that, well- I have no idea what to tell you then. As for the way I carry it out by "being an asshole" that's just the way I am. I'm from New England, I'm a very sarcastic and mean person when I'm angry.
But I want to put that all in the past this year. I want to apologize to each and every one of you whom I have hurt. In my own selfish endeavor to spite certain people and events in this fandom I've done nothing more but step on those I care about.
I've taken something that has brought me joy and have only agreed to view negatives.
SO that's it. I really don't know a lot of you personally and you really don't know me either. Making hateful journals and comments a majority of the time really doesn't spice up my chances and open the doors for new and wonderful friends that I'm certain are out there.
So like some of you have said before I'm just going to continue to do my thing. Take from this fandom only what I want and leave what I despise behind. Draw art, run around in Trigger, and be happy again. Period. This is not stuff i should be stressing or fighting over when it's suppose to be a hobby that makes me happy.
This isn't just to butter everyone's ass. It took a few people to pull me by the tail and kick me in the ass to realize what a piece of shit i was being and how it's not worth sacrificing friends to be a dick.
I'm just gonna.......chill.
I'm also asking you guys to help me out. If I at any point forget my words in this post I want you to bring it up.
I don't think that will be an issue though
Sorry again guys and happy new years you retarded trolls <3
First I will say that with a new year, comes a new start for all of us. So I've taken everyone off of my cunt list.
I came into this fandom for fun and entertainment. To make friends and to share interests and I did, I did make a lot of good friends online and at my first con 3 years ago. I continued to do so until this very day.`
Getting to the point, I admit I've been an asshole- this past year especially. Why? Well I can certainly try to explain:
I came into this community and I really fell in love with it. The thought of having your own character, the conventions to meet people, the costuming, all of it really really attracted me. Of course after more research I discovered the sex aspect, though never really thought that was what the whole community was about (I figured it was just like an "adult section" in a video store). I met a lot of people quickly and just got sucked right in.
Over the years, I met more and more and more people and went to more and more cons. Also along the way discovering more and more disgusting attributes. Back then I was giving the fandom the benefit of the doubt but the more and more I contributed my time towards it only to unravel more and more disgusting secrets in return, the more I just became.... angry.
Now here I am today. Not really proud of the fandom anymore and that's where the problem lies. I had really high hopes for this community but everyday I'm reminded that it's sadly held prisoner by sexual means. I mean, I can't show my friends and family my art that I worked hard on without fear of being labeled a sexual deviant. I've become hateful towards being surrounded by all this sex constantly, it does nothing but bring me down or make me angry.
So I've been lashing out at things that ruin it for me. I mean, I'm not doing it for attention. I don't know anything about the internet, I don't know what trolling is, i don't know the slang words, I don't know shit!
I'm just a guy that's mad as hell that something that brought him joy way back when, now just continues to destroy itself right in front of him and he wants to reach out to those who are listening through his journal. That's it. If you don't believe that, well- I have no idea what to tell you then. As for the way I carry it out by "being an asshole" that's just the way I am. I'm from New England, I'm a very sarcastic and mean person when I'm angry.
But I want to put that all in the past this year. I want to apologize to each and every one of you whom I have hurt. In my own selfish endeavor to spite certain people and events in this fandom I've done nothing more but step on those I care about.
I've taken something that has brought me joy and have only agreed to view negatives.
SO that's it. I really don't know a lot of you personally and you really don't know me either. Making hateful journals and comments a majority of the time really doesn't spice up my chances and open the doors for new and wonderful friends that I'm certain are out there.
So like some of you have said before I'm just going to continue to do my thing. Take from this fandom only what I want and leave what I despise behind. Draw art, run around in Trigger, and be happy again. Period. This is not stuff i should be stressing or fighting over when it's suppose to be a hobby that makes me happy.
This isn't just to butter everyone's ass. It took a few people to pull me by the tail and kick me in the ass to realize what a piece of shit i was being and how it's not worth sacrificing friends to be a dick.
I'm just gonna.......chill.
I'm also asking you guys to help me out. If I at any point forget my words in this post I want you to bring it up.
I don't think that will be an issue though Sorry again guys and happy new years you retarded trolls <3
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