Just ranting

[Mirah]

To say that I am completely overwhelmed is an understatement.

I don't need any replies

Just ranting

 

[Mirah]

In fact I am so overwhelmed
that I am now responding as a robot

 

[Mirah]

My sister said, "You are really calm"
I responded with, "Too calm?"

I found out this morning about.....
You just found out this eveining

but also I had to work
and couldn't deal with it

then there is the other thing
and that thing
and
so
yeah
I am just sort of here
but I feel strong
stoic even

 

[Mirah]

Which of my profiles is the most emo antsy ones?
Which one do I use to rant with?
I don't know
This is different than an ILC rant
It certainly isn't an LC rant
WHAT IS IT??

 

[The Question]

It's a mess. Pull yourself together. Or don't, I'm not really that invested.

 

[Mirah]

delayed grief sucks
any kind of grief sucks
I didn't know I could hold it in for that long

too many people have passed away in a short amount of time

 

[jack]

Half a million more than last year at this time. To be sure.

 

[Mirah]

On a personal level.
Still processing the loss of the person I was in a relationship with who passed away at tht end of January.
This week my sister's boyfriend passed away. On his birthday of all days. My mom told us that he was goiing to propose to her. He was in the hospital for a couple of weeks, she couldn't go see him. She had found him on the couch un-responsive. She saved his life for that period of time, but his health had already declined and he kept it to himself.
and at work I am coverng shifts for a girl who lost her baby.

My heart hurts.

 

[jack]

That's intense. You're going through a lot at the same time + covid.

 

[jack]

To say that I am completely overwhelmed is an understatement.

I don't need any replies

Just ranting

!

 

[Mirah]

My sister said, "You are really calm"
I responded with, "Too calm?"

I found out this morning about.....
You just found out this eveining

but also I had to work
and couldn't deal with it

then there is the other thing
and that thing
and
so
yeah
I am just sort of here
but I feel strong
stoic even

My word is not solid! I said I would not post here again, but I would rather rant about death down here than up there.

 

[Mirah]

I mean we are all going to die at some point.

 

[Mirah]

But when I think about my really close loved ones passing away, it doesn't make me feel any better about it all. It is still sad indeed.

 

[Mirah]

death is our curse for sin

the church says.

Do I tell her that for comfort? Um no.

 

[Mirah]

"You'll see them in heaven!"

Is what they say

 

[Mirah]

Saving this space for the thoughts in my head

 

[Mirah]

I can't remember all of the things I wanted to say. And all of the things I thought about so far. It has been a bit of a roller coaster these last couple of days.

 

[jack]

I often go into a room and forget why I went in there.

 

[Loktar]

I'm cursed with a good memory.

 

[jack]

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