CaptainWacky
I want to smell dark matter
jkghj gsgh ghsji gj ji no point learning
you
don't care enough
no point doing anything if there's no reward
most rewards are imagined
cna't imagine anymore
argued away my imagination
not much left
won't even notice when I die
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JR: BAH GAWD KING, WHAT'S ROCKETMAN38 DOING?
King: JR..I think he's...I think he's having an existential crisis!
JR: GOOD GAWD UP HIGH IN HEAVEN, WHAT THE FUCK WOULD HE WANT TO GO AND DO THAT FOR, JESUS HAVE MERCY!
King: You know some people can't control these things, JR!
JR: DAMN IT TO HELL, HE COULD CONTROL IT IF HE ACCEPTED THE LORD GOD OUR SAVRIOUR JESUS CHRIST INTO HIS HEART AND BAH GAWD SOUL, KING!
King: No arguments from me there, JR!
JR: WHAT AN UNGRATEFUL BASTARD, OUT TROOPS ARE DYING IN IRAQ FOR HIS AMERICAN FREEDOM AND HE'S CRYING LIKE A LITTLE BABY GIRL!
King: It sickens me!
JR: DAMN FUCKING RIGHT IT DOES, LOOK AT HIM, ASKING IF HE CREATES HIS THOUGHTS OR HIS THOUGHTS CREATE HIM, NO REAL MAN GIVES A FUCK ABOUT SUCH QUESTIONS!
King: He needs to get laid!
JR: HE NEEDS TO GET THE HELL OUT OF MY SIGHT BEFORE I KICK HIM IN THE FACE, KING!
King: No arguments there, JR!
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JESUS
CAN YOU HEAR ME
CAN YO?
HOW COME SOMETIMES YOU APPEAR IN VISIONS TO PEOPLE?
BUT NOT TO MEEE!
IF ANYONE NEEDS JESUS IT's ME
SO WHY WON'T YOU FUCKING APPEAR!?
BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE "FAITH"?
WELL IT MUST BE EEASY TO HAVE FAITH IF YOU'RE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE YOU APPEAR IN VISIONS TOO!
NOT VERY FUCKING FIAR, JESUS!
FAIR
NOT FRIAR
YOU ASSHOLE
I'M SO MAD
DON'T LET THAT MOMENT OF HUMOUR DETRACT FROM HOW ANGRY I AM
GRRR
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I'm not really angry though i'm not really anything i'm beyond emitons whenever i felt them before they were a pathetc, child's model of real human emotions anyway, childish and unsophisticated leaving me open for ridicule, so i'm better off without them aren't I, better to remain silen and be thought a fool than to open your mouth and remove all doubt, right same thing really if you think about it in the exact same way i just thoguht about it and aren't going to explain because it's too hard to expalin thi9ngs, too hard to do anything and you get no reward, i have moments of clarity where il ook around and think "is this really hapepning" and sadly the answer is yes, and the extradordinary things, the things I used to imagine back when I used to imagine, they never happen, because they were all in my head, only the mundane and the empty and the flat happen, adn things that move other peopel don't move me anyway, beacuse i'm tnohghing dont feel can't be moved, stand still, stay still, always still, never going anywhere, don't want to, what if I went to the wrong place, never had interestes, never wanted anything really except life to somehow magically make snese and it won't, and you all have an advatnatage with yoru thoughts and opinions and your miorr nerousn what do I have eh, what do I have an "unique perspective" bollocks to that what's the point, I'm a pssagener passenger looking out at the world and not touching it and not being touched by it and it is maddeing, on yes, in the rare meomnts that I feel i feel maddened, oh yes my pretties, oh yes
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all colours look the smae to me
____________________________________
IF ONLY I COULD DRINK ALCHOLHOl
_________-
HAHAH TRAPPED L
AS TRAPPED CONFINED IN PRIONS WHOO
OWN MIND
INVISBLE BARRIERS
ALL THAT CRAP
SLEKTWAG
I DOn't KNOW
what's the oponty
djh h
h
jh
hfj point
ptonles
s
without a pointt
nothing here
this is it
the present
this
this fucking moemtn
typing this
is all ia m
not
gl feeling
not doing
not dreaming
can't go back
you can never go home again
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NO TURNING BAKC THE ROCKETSHIP TOOK LITTLE BILLY STRAIGHT TO THE SUN WHERE HIS PEOPLE HAD SENT HIM BECAUSE THEY BELIEVE THAT GOD LIVED IN THE SUN SO THEY HAD BUILT A ROCKET TO SEND TO THE SUN AND THEY PUT THEIR PUREST SPIRIT IN IT, LITTLE BILLY, TO GO TO THE SUN AND TALK TO GOD, BECAUSE IF GOD WOULD LISTEN TO ANYONE IT WOULD BE LITTLE BILLY, AND ALL THE WAY TO THE SUN, EVEN AS HE STARTED TO MELT, LITTLE BILLY DIDN'T STOP BELIEVING, HE KNEW HE WAS GOING tO MEET GOD IN TEH SUN IT WAS HIS DESTInY IT WOULD HAVE TO HAPPEN THERE WAS NO OTHER PPTION THAN IT HAPPENING, HE WOULD MEET GOD AND TELL GOD HE LOVED HIM AND IF HE WAS LUCKY GOD WOULD TELL BILLY THAT HE LOVED HIM TOO AND BILLY SMILED EVEN tHOUGH HE HAD NO MORE MOUTH AS HE BOIlED UP INTO LIQUID VAPOUR AND HIS SHIP WAS CONSUMED BY FIRE, HIS LAST THOUGHT WAS OF GOD AND LOVe.
HIS PEOPLE STOPPED BELIEVING IN GOD WHEN LITTLE BILLY DID NOT RETURN AND BECOME A PEOPLE OF HEDONISTIC ATHIESTS AND MOST OF THEM ENJOYED IT BUT THEY ALL FELT SECRETLY HOLLOW INSIDE AND THEY MISSED GOD AND WHEN THEY LOOKED AT THE SUN THE DIDN'T FEEL WARMTH ANYMORE, THEY FELT LOSS, A COLD GODLESS LOSS.
__________________-
COULD HARLAAN ELLISON WRITE SOMETHING AS GOOD AS THAT?
you
don't care enough
no point doing anything if there's no reward
most rewards are imagined
cna't imagine anymore
argued away my imagination
not much left
won't even notice when I die
____________
JR: BAH GAWD KING, WHAT'S ROCKETMAN38 DOING?
King: JR..I think he's...I think he's having an existential crisis!
JR: GOOD GAWD UP HIGH IN HEAVEN, WHAT THE FUCK WOULD HE WANT TO GO AND DO THAT FOR, JESUS HAVE MERCY!
King: You know some people can't control these things, JR!
JR: DAMN IT TO HELL, HE COULD CONTROL IT IF HE ACCEPTED THE LORD GOD OUR SAVRIOUR JESUS CHRIST INTO HIS HEART AND BAH GAWD SOUL, KING!
King: No arguments from me there, JR!
JR: WHAT AN UNGRATEFUL BASTARD, OUT TROOPS ARE DYING IN IRAQ FOR HIS AMERICAN FREEDOM AND HE'S CRYING LIKE A LITTLE BABY GIRL!
King: It sickens me!
JR: DAMN FUCKING RIGHT IT DOES, LOOK AT HIM, ASKING IF HE CREATES HIS THOUGHTS OR HIS THOUGHTS CREATE HIM, NO REAL MAN GIVES A FUCK ABOUT SUCH QUESTIONS!
King: He needs to get laid!
JR: HE NEEDS TO GET THE HELL OUT OF MY SIGHT BEFORE I KICK HIM IN THE FACE, KING!
King: No arguments there, JR!
____________
JESUS
CAN YOU HEAR ME
CAN YO?
HOW COME SOMETIMES YOU APPEAR IN VISIONS TO PEOPLE?
BUT NOT TO MEEE!
IF ANYONE NEEDS JESUS IT's ME
SO WHY WON'T YOU FUCKING APPEAR!?
BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE "FAITH"?
WELL IT MUST BE EEASY TO HAVE FAITH IF YOU'RE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE YOU APPEAR IN VISIONS TOO!
NOT VERY FUCKING FIAR, JESUS!
FAIR
NOT FRIAR
YOU ASSHOLE
I'M SO MAD
DON'T LET THAT MOMENT OF HUMOUR DETRACT FROM HOW ANGRY I AM
GRRR
_________
I'm not really angry though i'm not really anything i'm beyond emitons whenever i felt them before they were a pathetc, child's model of real human emotions anyway, childish and unsophisticated leaving me open for ridicule, so i'm better off without them aren't I, better to remain silen and be thought a fool than to open your mouth and remove all doubt, right same thing really if you think about it in the exact same way i just thoguht about it and aren't going to explain because it's too hard to expalin thi9ngs, too hard to do anything and you get no reward, i have moments of clarity where il ook around and think "is this really hapepning" and sadly the answer is yes, and the extradordinary things, the things I used to imagine back when I used to imagine, they never happen, because they were all in my head, only the mundane and the empty and the flat happen, adn things that move other peopel don't move me anyway, beacuse i'm tnohghing dont feel can't be moved, stand still, stay still, always still, never going anywhere, don't want to, what if I went to the wrong place, never had interestes, never wanted anything really except life to somehow magically make snese and it won't, and you all have an advatnatage with yoru thoughts and opinions and your miorr nerousn what do I have eh, what do I have an "unique perspective" bollocks to that what's the point, I'm a pssagener passenger looking out at the world and not touching it and not being touched by it and it is maddeing, on yes, in the rare meomnts that I feel i feel maddened, oh yes my pretties, oh yes
______________________________-
all colours look the smae to me
____________________________________
IF ONLY I COULD DRINK ALCHOLHOl
_________-
HAHAH TRAPPED L
AS TRAPPED CONFINED IN PRIONS WHOO
OWN MIND
INVISBLE BARRIERS
ALL THAT CRAP
SLEKTWAG
I DOn't KNOW
what's the oponty
djh h
h
jh
hfj point
ptonles
s
without a pointt
nothing here
this is it
the present
this
this fucking moemtn
typing this
is all ia m
not
gl feeling
not doing
not dreaming
can't go back
you can never go home again
__________---
NO TURNING BAKC THE ROCKETSHIP TOOK LITTLE BILLY STRAIGHT TO THE SUN WHERE HIS PEOPLE HAD SENT HIM BECAUSE THEY BELIEVE THAT GOD LIVED IN THE SUN SO THEY HAD BUILT A ROCKET TO SEND TO THE SUN AND THEY PUT THEIR PUREST SPIRIT IN IT, LITTLE BILLY, TO GO TO THE SUN AND TALK TO GOD, BECAUSE IF GOD WOULD LISTEN TO ANYONE IT WOULD BE LITTLE BILLY, AND ALL THE WAY TO THE SUN, EVEN AS HE STARTED TO MELT, LITTLE BILLY DIDN'T STOP BELIEVING, HE KNEW HE WAS GOING tO MEET GOD IN TEH SUN IT WAS HIS DESTInY IT WOULD HAVE TO HAPPEN THERE WAS NO OTHER PPTION THAN IT HAPPENING, HE WOULD MEET GOD AND TELL GOD HE LOVED HIM AND IF HE WAS LUCKY GOD WOULD TELL BILLY THAT HE LOVED HIM TOO AND BILLY SMILED EVEN tHOUGH HE HAD NO MORE MOUTH AS HE BOIlED UP INTO LIQUID VAPOUR AND HIS SHIP WAS CONSUMED BY FIRE, HIS LAST THOUGHT WAS OF GOD AND LOVe.
HIS PEOPLE STOPPED BELIEVING IN GOD WHEN LITTLE BILLY DID NOT RETURN AND BECOME A PEOPLE OF HEDONISTIC ATHIESTS AND MOST OF THEM ENJOYED IT BUT THEY ALL FELT SECRETLY HOLLOW INSIDE AND THEY MISSED GOD AND WHEN THEY LOOKED AT THE SUN THE DIDN'T FEEL WARMTH ANYMORE, THEY FELT LOSS, A COLD GODLESS LOSS.
__________________-
COULD HARLAAN ELLISON WRITE SOMETHING AS GOOD AS THAT?