CaptainWacky
I want to smell dark matter
"What are you doing, Billy?"
"Just having a lie down."
"A lie down!? A LIE THE FUCK DOWN!?"
"Dad, why are you swearing!?"
"Listen up Billy, you can't lie down! You can't stay still for a second! Life goes flying by at the speed of light! You can't afford to waste a single moment of it! Get up! Do something productive, do something fun, JUST DO SOMETHING FOR GOD'S SAKE!"
"Dad, I'm tired, and I like lying down..."
"YAAAAAARGH! You're wasting your life! It's a beautiful day, you should be outside, chasing girls! YES, GIRLS! You haven't even had a girlfriend yet!"
"Dad..."
"You haven't even had SEX yet!"
"Dad, I'm eight."
"NO EXCUSES! Before you know it, you'll look up and you'll be forty. YOU'LL BE FORTY, YOU HEAR ME?"
"Dad, have you been drinking? I know you're birthday hit you pretty hard..."
"I'M FINE!! I've only had TEN! HAHAHA! Come on Bobby, let's go for a FUCKING drive!"
"My name's Billy...oww, let go off my arm!"
"HAHAHA, WE'RE GOING TO DRIVE! DId you know that time starts to slow down the faster you go? Reach the speed of light and it standstill, I heard somewhere, maybe from my brother...I know he touched you in a bad place and he's in jail for that now, but he knew about science! LET'S GO AS FAST AS WE CAN, BILLY! We'll make time standstill and live FOREVER!"
"No, dad, you're drunk...let go of me! I'm not getting in that car...you're hurting me...let me go...open this door! Dad, no, you can't drive...NO! WHAT ARE YOU DOING, SLOW THE FUCK DOWN! You nearly ran that woman over! DAD, DAD! DAAAAD!"
"INTO THE FUCKING RIVER BILLY, WE'LL DROWN OUR SORROWS, HAHAHAHA!"
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NAYGYAG
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FG
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DHFHFUck
don't know
dont' understand
don't know my own mind
my mind doesnt know my own mind
there is no hidden secret to unlcok
there is no answer
just confusion
and disinterest
being awake hurts
messed up life
messed it up bigtime
ignored the signs when I was young
din't know what to do
was too scared to ask for hlep
too scared
thought thigns would work out okay
I was wrong
I have paid for it
squanderd my sanity for hte sake of avoiding stress
now look at me
can't handle leaving the hosue
dcan't
handle
anything
cant
never will be able
can only get worse
tooo far gone
I lack the fundamental structure on which to build a functioning huamn personality
will never mbe
humna
g
will never be
just th
s
just these worsd
meaingless words
I'm not worsd
I'm nothing
EMPTY
not here
flahs in and out
when I'm "stumulated"
can't be stimulated
cna't be
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sFUCKIN INSAE CAN't EXPREPS
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JLOOK AT THESE WORDS
THESE WORDS ARE EXPRESSIN GHOW MY MIND WORKS AREN'T HTey
FACe
WANT TO PUCNH MY FACE SO BAD
WANT TO CARVE IT UP
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LOL 26
26
27
28
299 THIRTY
HAHAHAH
all meaingless
no point comparing me to other people my age
I'm not them
I'm different
no point comparing me to anyone
no ponit
other's like me?
doens't helfp
fgs
fgfhmk NTOHING HELPS WHILE I'M ME
I'll alwyas be me
can only be me
just oging to die
should die
I'll die as me
dying ends me
being me is the problem
if dying meant I'd be someone else I would do it
but it doenst'
just th eend
but not point being here
no point not being
hERe
JUST WANT TO SLEEP
might have a nice dream
but I'll sleep too much
and die
no dreams when you die
NO DREAMS
HAHAHAHAHsdfhhtghg
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gf
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fhhs jg MUDLBOOD
don't like anyting
just pretend
so used to pretending
it's all I know
I thin when I pretend I'm being real
but I'm not
never real
all pretend
all
"Just having a lie down."
"A lie down!? A LIE THE FUCK DOWN!?"
"Dad, why are you swearing!?"
"Listen up Billy, you can't lie down! You can't stay still for a second! Life goes flying by at the speed of light! You can't afford to waste a single moment of it! Get up! Do something productive, do something fun, JUST DO SOMETHING FOR GOD'S SAKE!"
"Dad, I'm tired, and I like lying down..."
"YAAAAAARGH! You're wasting your life! It's a beautiful day, you should be outside, chasing girls! YES, GIRLS! You haven't even had a girlfriend yet!"
"Dad..."
"You haven't even had SEX yet!"
"Dad, I'm eight."
"NO EXCUSES! Before you know it, you'll look up and you'll be forty. YOU'LL BE FORTY, YOU HEAR ME?"
"Dad, have you been drinking? I know you're birthday hit you pretty hard..."
"I'M FINE!! I've only had TEN! HAHAHA! Come on Bobby, let's go for a FUCKING drive!"
"My name's Billy...oww, let go off my arm!"
"HAHAHA, WE'RE GOING TO DRIVE! DId you know that time starts to slow down the faster you go? Reach the speed of light and it standstill, I heard somewhere, maybe from my brother...I know he touched you in a bad place and he's in jail for that now, but he knew about science! LET'S GO AS FAST AS WE CAN, BILLY! We'll make time standstill and live FOREVER!"
"No, dad, you're drunk...let go of me! I'm not getting in that car...you're hurting me...let me go...open this door! Dad, no, you can't drive...NO! WHAT ARE YOU DOING, SLOW THE FUCK DOWN! You nearly ran that woman over! DAD, DAD! DAAAAD!"
"INTO THE FUCKING RIVER BILLY, WE'LL DROWN OUR SORROWS, HAHAHAHA!"
______________
NAYGYAG
A
G
FG
G
DHFHFUck
don't know
dont' understand
don't know my own mind
my mind doesnt know my own mind
there is no hidden secret to unlcok
there is no answer
just confusion
and disinterest
being awake hurts
messed up life
messed it up bigtime
ignored the signs when I was young
din't know what to do
was too scared to ask for hlep
too scared
thought thigns would work out okay
I was wrong
I have paid for it
squanderd my sanity for hte sake of avoiding stress
now look at me
can't handle leaving the hosue
dcan't
handle
anything
cant
never will be able
can only get worse
tooo far gone
I lack the fundamental structure on which to build a functioning huamn personality
will never mbe
humna
g
will never be
just th
s
just these worsd
meaingless words
I'm not worsd
I'm nothing
EMPTY
not here
flahs in and out
when I'm "stumulated"
can't be stimulated
cna't be
gf#dsz
ntoasdyhp
fhs
fh
sFUCKIN INSAE CAN't EXPREPS
g
fg FCEPsf
JLOOK AT THESE WORDS
THESE WORDS ARE EXPRESSIN GHOW MY MIND WORKS AREN'T HTey
FACe
WANT TO PUCNH MY FACE SO BAD
WANT TO CARVE IT UP
asf
h
fhnfsjl HAHAHAH
fg
rg ASPERGERs'S
gfs
h
LOL 26
26
27
28
299 THIRTY
HAHAHAH
all meaingless
no point comparing me to other people my age
I'm not them
I'm different
no point comparing me to anyone
no ponit
other's like me?
doens't helfp
fgs
fgfhmk NTOHING HELPS WHILE I'M ME
I'll alwyas be me
can only be me
just oging to die
should die
I'll die as me
dying ends me
being me is the problem
if dying meant I'd be someone else I would do it
but it doenst'
just th eend
but not point being here
no point not being
hERe
JUST WANT TO SLEEP
might have a nice dream
but I'll sleep too much
and die
no dreams when you die
NO DREAMS
HAHAHAHAHsdfhhtghg
fg
g
g
gf
g
g ALLIOSN MACK ANNA PAIQHNFs
fh
h
fhhs jg MUDLBOOD
don't like anyting
just pretend
so used to pretending
it's all I know
I thin when I pretend I'm being real
but I'm not
never real
all pretend
all