CaptainWacky
I want to smell dark matter
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I don't want to
i'ts tsijtg
ga
I hate it when thing interrupt my routine in any way
hey loo
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one to go until what
another one
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no charles horse today
he's a lie
it's all lies
this is the real me
starying tl
staring into the abyss
hahaha
and it's not staring back
tha't sthe maddening part
ther'es nothing in there
nothing
nNOTHING
HAHaha
remember eight years ago when I had my most major breakdown ever
you probably don't
or the other one two years ago
I'm due another I thikn
I have more reason than ever
I'm EIGHT YERAS OLDER than my worst one
so you'd think logically I'd have a big fucking meltdown right now
and yet
it's not coming?
I can't
i'm not really trying
but even thinking about it now
I cna't feel it
don't
stop saying can't
I don't feel it
too much is gone
too much of this
your brain
it's just a brain
it gets older and thigs leak out
things keep repeating and are lessened
my consciousness just reacts to that
I am a function of my brain
so what about the afterlife
I thought about that eight years ago
because you know depression makes me think about death or death makes me depressed or whatever
it's not very intersting I know
so the big afterlife thing people say is something like "the brain is a reduction device for the soul"
how do tye know this when they can only experience the unvierse through their brains?
near death experiences and wishful thinking
so yeah
I guess they think there's just "souls" floating around and they get attached to brains once conscious thought begins?
I guesS?
what's the point of that?
how did that system evolve?
what's the ponit of sticking a "soul" inside a brain really when the brain has all the parts needed for life
and yet you can't "disprove" it so they can just be smug and say "Aaaaah you can't disprove it"
and I know there's lots of things you can't disprove like the invisble monkey sitting on my shoulder right now but forget that
you can't really convince them tath they're wrong
but they can't convince me that they're right
so it's a statlemate
but it semes unlikely
that the universe exists in such a way that I'll exist forever
because what would I do after I die?
just hang around?
get attached to another brain?
don't know
where does the "soul" go when yuou fall asleep or get knocked unconsious or have a wnak?
fkag
ghf
yeah
no point thinking about it
you won't know when you die
life is just a dream
so better do something before I wake up"
like umm
uhhh
get a new body
stop having autism
oh wait i can't do eighter of those things
that rather limits my options!
how about I just posted another thinkg of the day!
fHEHEEHEHEHEHEH
I'LL JUST DO THAT THEN
THAT'LLS BE WORHTLESS
WORTHWHILE
SAME THINGg
g
gfffffffffffffff
maybe i'll hassle more people post to post in the mine field which ironically makes them want to post less
because i don't lik ething schanging so i just want people posting in the mine field forever like time has frozen
but it's hasnt
it hasn't
eight years
and it's not like life started eight years ago
i probably existed before then
although i have no way of knowing for sure
yeah
at least this is all a computer simulation right
that's supposed tobe more likely than it is unlikely
yeah
i'm a computer simulation of me
does that mean there was an original me Ii'm simulating
or maybe I'm the original me
dost that mean that when a computer simulation of me is inevitibably created in the far future my "soul"/consciousness will reaappear inside of it?
will i be floating aroudn wiating for that?
and when it does happen...
i'll just be forced to repeat the same life over again
with a dim echo inside
typing this again
waiting for the inevitable
waiting thorugh long eons to do it again
what if there was a human me and a computer me at the same time in differenct parts o fht euniverse
which wuld I be
maybe neither
what if there isn't a me now
what if it's all just a play
and the me thinking about this
is just my brain telling me there's a me thinking about this
and what if I don't hit submit new thread
to conquer fate
yeah
i'm going to hit submit new thread
i always do
ffffffff
I don't want to
i'ts tsijtg
ga
I hate it when thing interrupt my routine in any way
hey loo
fk
kdf
s
df499
one to go until what
another one
f
hjahahahahhahaa
bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb
b
ghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ert
popp
t
no charles horse today
he's a lie
it's all lies
this is the real me
starying tl
staring into the abyss
hahaha
and it's not staring back
tha't sthe maddening part
ther'es nothing in there
nothing
nNOTHING
HAHaha
remember eight years ago when I had my most major breakdown ever
you probably don't
or the other one two years ago
I'm due another I thikn
I have more reason than ever
I'm EIGHT YERAS OLDER than my worst one
so you'd think logically I'd have a big fucking meltdown right now
and yet
it's not coming?
I can't
i'm not really trying
but even thinking about it now
I cna't feel it
don't
stop saying can't
I don't feel it
too much is gone
too much of this
your brain
it's just a brain
it gets older and thigs leak out
things keep repeating and are lessened
my consciousness just reacts to that
I am a function of my brain
so what about the afterlife
I thought about that eight years ago
because you know depression makes me think about death or death makes me depressed or whatever
it's not very intersting I know
so the big afterlife thing people say is something like "the brain is a reduction device for the soul"
how do tye know this when they can only experience the unvierse through their brains?
near death experiences and wishful thinking
so yeah
I guess they think there's just "souls" floating around and they get attached to brains once conscious thought begins?
I guesS?
what's the point of that?
how did that system evolve?
what's the ponit of sticking a "soul" inside a brain really when the brain has all the parts needed for life
and yet you can't "disprove" it so they can just be smug and say "Aaaaah you can't disprove it"
and I know there's lots of things you can't disprove like the invisble monkey sitting on my shoulder right now but forget that
you can't really convince them tath they're wrong
but they can't convince me that they're right
so it's a statlemate
but it semes unlikely
that the universe exists in such a way that I'll exist forever
because what would I do after I die?
just hang around?
get attached to another brain?
don't know
where does the "soul" go when yuou fall asleep or get knocked unconsious or have a wnak?
fkag
ghf
yeah
no point thinking about it
you won't know when you die
life is just a dream
so better do something before I wake up"
like umm
uhhh
get a new body
stop having autism
oh wait i can't do eighter of those things
that rather limits my options!
how about I just posted another thinkg of the day!
fHEHEEHEHEHEHEH
I'LL JUST DO THAT THEN
THAT'LLS BE WORHTLESS
WORTHWHILE
SAME THINGg
g
gfffffffffffffff
maybe i'll hassle more people post to post in the mine field which ironically makes them want to post less
because i don't lik ething schanging so i just want people posting in the mine field forever like time has frozen
but it's hasnt
it hasn't
eight years
and it's not like life started eight years ago
i probably existed before then
although i have no way of knowing for sure
yeah
at least this is all a computer simulation right
that's supposed tobe more likely than it is unlikely
yeah
i'm a computer simulation of me
does that mean there was an original me Ii'm simulating
or maybe I'm the original me
dost that mean that when a computer simulation of me is inevitibably created in the far future my "soul"/consciousness will reaappear inside of it?
will i be floating aroudn wiating for that?
and when it does happen...
i'll just be forced to repeat the same life over again
with a dim echo inside
typing this again
waiting for the inevitable
waiting thorugh long eons to do it again
what if there was a human me and a computer me at the same time in differenct parts o fht euniverse
which wuld I be
maybe neither
what if there isn't a me now
what if it's all just a play
and the me thinking about this
is just my brain telling me there's a me thinking about this
and what if I don't hit submit new thread
to conquer fate
yeah
i'm going to hit submit new thread
i always do
ffffffff
