Your Fantasy

[Love Child]

I am your fantasy
not your reality
nor mine
I am no one's reality
yet I am
and you are
but
I
won't
be
your
girl

 

[Love Child]

Even thought I want to be
as I walk through the valley
One must be my shepherd
and I shall not want
I shall not want
I shall not want
not want
want
shall
not

 

[Love Child]

Is this what Loktar is doing right now?
Writing on the wall
a thousand times
"I shall not dress in women's clothing" "I shall not dress in women's clothing"

Oh how easy it is to focus on Loktar and forget myself

 

[Love Child]

Suddenly I am so wanting
so needy
not really needy
homesick
perhaps

 

[Love Child]

Unsettled
restless
irratable
discontent

 

[Love Child]

Thy rod and thy staff
they comfort me
comfort me
like a pillow
I need a pillow to lie down upon
you give me green pastures
the 23rd psalm
still waters
restoring my soul
fearing no evil
what evil is there
is there evil?
have I walked evil
am I evil
do I know
have I pretended?
do you know?

 

[Love Child]

What do you know about me
my friend?
Very little
what have you asked?
What have you gained?
What do you know?
Where have you ventured?

 

[Love Child]

Why do I want so much? Why do I need so much?
Rest my soul
quite my mind
settle my mind and my body
let them rest
let me find peace

 

[Love Child]

Yeah fuck I have to do it sober
some would drink a beer
have a toast
smoke a joint
but do it sober
do it all fucking sober
and you will see
who is weaker?
who is strong?
who is ok
who is not

its all the same
no one judges

only you

only you

you and your fools

 

[Love Child]

the head is annointed with oil
goodness and mercy shall follow
not one not two but all of the days
every day

no comfort
no soul
no spirit
no rest

high on a mountain

 

[Love Child]

I laugh at those that scoff
go ahead
it is your duty
your function

 

[Love Child]

Tonight I build a fire
and I put 3 names in front of me
I cross one off and put it into the fire
it burns and I set it free
I put the second name on a piece of paper
I write a few words
place it into the fire and let it go
I write the last name on a piece of paper
and I say
I don't know how this will turn out
but it is not mine to decide
I place it into the burning wood
and I say a prayer, not mine but thy will be done

 

[Love Child]

Let it be free
let it be
the way
you intended it to be

 

[NeonMercuryASH]

No rest for the wicked
It's what they say
Loktar had to lose his corset
It's his time of lean
Awaiting Resurection