Mirah
I love you
My friends were having a discussion about being gay and they asked, "Mirah are you that way?" and I responded with, "Do I have to say?" and they said, "No, of course not!" So I didn't.
But then a year later after I handed out pride stickers in June one of my friends inquired about it so they could wish me happy pride. And that is the first I ever said it outloud to another human in person.
I feel like a fraud, an imposter, tho I don't judge myself
I am not walking around with a target as I am straight presenting.
And then I question, am I gay or do I just have kinks?
Am I gay or do I just want to sleep with both men and women?
And then I reassure myself and say it doesn't really matter.
I love both, I want both. I want women more, I am just scared to pursue that fully so I stay where it feels safe I suppose. And then I just hold out for the potential that maybe one day I will meet a true love and "settle down" as they say but I'm not actively looking.
But then a year later after I handed out pride stickers in June one of my friends inquired about it so they could wish me happy pride. And that is the first I ever said it outloud to another human in person.
I feel like a fraud, an imposter, tho I don't judge myself
I am not walking around with a target as I am straight presenting.
And then I question, am I gay or do I just have kinks?
Am I gay or do I just want to sleep with both men and women?
And then I reassure myself and say it doesn't really matter.
I love both, I want both. I want women more, I am just scared to pursue that fully so I stay where it feels safe I suppose. And then I just hold out for the potential that maybe one day I will meet a true love and "settle down" as they say but I'm not actively looking.
